absence makes the art grow weak [53]

Today’s assignment: Tell me about times you haven’t read.  What were you doing?

It’s almost funny to me because the times when I don’t read are probably the times I should read the most.  Reading is often a wonderful escape.  Because it is one of the only activities you can do in which you absolutely cannot think about anything else.  But I usually don’t read when I’m stressed or overwhelmed.  I’m not reading right now.  And I probably should be.  Sometimes I find that my absence from reading almost makes things worse, which is odd.  It’s almost like when you have a bad fight with a good friend.  Things in your chest feel tight and you feel awkward.  Like you’re missing a piece of you.  That’s like what not reading does to me.  I feel half empty when I don’t read.  It is such a giant part of my life.  But sometimes because it is such a huge part of my life, it has certain pressures built into it.  And that’s why when I’m overwhelmed and stressed, I don’t read.  I’m sure this doesn’t make any sense, but I promise you it makes sense to me.  It’s almost like avoiding talking to someone who will give you unwanted but accurate advice about the stresses in your life.  When I read, I find myself pondering my own life in comparison to the characters, which usually leaves me feeling either motivated or defeated.  And when things in life aren’t going so smoothly, I can’t risk feeling more defeated.  I’m in the midst of a book that I’m just about finished with, but I haven’t touched it in about a month.  I I’m not reading right now.

About JoElizabeth

I am a writer who loves to explore all different types of relationships. I am most happy when surrounded by my loved ones and furry children. I've never met a stranger, and I talk way too much. My favorite things to do are eat {preferably at a restaurant} with good friends, write, watch DVDs of TV series {especially FRIENDS}, drink lots of coffee and learn.
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